It's very true that people come and go. Groups of friends change faster than the weather in Utah. Someone may be your best friend, then in a single moment, they are gone. Some friends you grew up with, others may have come into your life later. Sometimes it seems like you're floating on the wind, only passing through lives, never being able to stay long enough for something to happen. It sucks.
It sucks to suddenly be on the outside looking in on what used to be your group of friends. It sucks to become friends with someone, only to have them suddenly stop talking to you. The only thing that makes it easy for me is Nathan.
|This was at a benefit concert in 2010|
Nathan and I met right before all my other friends walked out (by "walk out" I mean "tore through my life and ripped it all apart"). He was there when Danny pulled his stupid stunt. Nathan was there when I got really sick. He was there to hold me when I was scared and alone. Nathan was there when everyone else left. Without Nathan, chances are I wouldn't be here.
|2009 I think. Our first trip to Lagoon together|
Then I got to be there for Nathan. I got the chance to hold him when he was angry and upset. He called me when it seemed like his life was falling apart around him. I got to hold his hand through his senior year. I got to watch him graduate. I got to listen to him play in the Jazz band everyday. I got to stay up until all hours of the night to help him finish his English assignments. I loved every second of it all.
My other friends probably felt like I was replacing them, but I wasn't. They walked out when I needed them. Nathan walked in before I needed him. He was there for it all. He's the best friend I've ever had.
|Braxton took this picture, that's why it's out of focus.|
|At one of Zac's concerts.|
|Our first dance together. Homecoming 2009|
I wouldn't take any of it back and I wouldn't change any moment of it. Everything from meeting him on the bus to our first kiss was perfect. Going to his brother's concerts or hiding Easter eggs at my house, it all makes me smile. No matter how retarded we are, I love us. =)