Saturday, March 27, 2010


Dear Milk,

Hi, How are you? I hope you're awesome, because I am not. I have no solid evidence, but I'm pretty sure you're the reason I was sick for the past two days. I hope you're happy! I had to cancel plans for this weekend. Those were pretty sweet plans too! To make up for it you can recreate the festival of colors and take me riding with my dad.

Well have a great day!

With love,

Thursday, March 25, 2010


in the wind of the future.
in the wake of the past.
Open the gift we call the present
and carefully fill your glass.
Pick your poison,
Drink it slow.
Fade into eternal darkness
let it all go
Forget the world,
it left you here
to suffer, cry
and live in fear.
Let it burn down your throat.
Lay and sleep in your coat.
Fade, but never say goodbye
Fear, but never look away.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Hooks and Vices

Every time I get hooked I turn to a vice...

I don't turn to any vice (not that I have many), but I turn to one in particular... I don't know why I do that. It's not like it makes life any easier. Actually, it makes life harder. My brain stops functioning right, I get tired and irritable...and then nothing gets done.

When I come to a point in my life that I can't control, I look to control something, anything. And it always ends up being this. It's pathetic, I know.

What's even more pathetic is how I fail at controlling it. I think "Okay, this time I mean it. I'm going to seriously do it now!" Then I see something tasty, or exciting, and I forget all about it. Then I lose control again and it comes back up. It haunts my mind, and pulls at me...

The two years that I controlled it (or rather, let it control me) sucked. I didn't realize it at the time, but it did. It sucked...beyond all other suckiness. I don't think I lost anything, but I know I missed out on a lot. I learned a lot though. Learning a lot is what makes this hard for me.

Learning a lot, to me, typically means that whatever it was it was good. So in my head, my vice is actually okay. I justify it... It makes me feel like I'm in control of something instead of trying to control things I can't. It takes my mind off of things.

Right now, when I've lost control of so much, it's hard to ignore...

Thursday, March 18, 2010

9 mondays left...

So in PE, Sheidi always tells us how many Mondays we have left. Today's count is 9... only 9 weeks left. I was sitting next to someone I've gone to school with since kindergarten. Then it hit me, this really is it. This is what we've been waiting for for 13 years...

It's weird to think that these kids you've grown up with will be gone and you probably won't see each other ever again. We've gone to school together since kindergarten, or seventh grade, or maybe even since our sophomore year... Now we only have 9 Mondays left together. 9 Mondays to suffer through. 9 Mondays to say goodbye. 9 Mondays to wonder what'll happen now. 9 Mondays to walk down the hall with friends and frenemies. only 9 Mondays.

Now that it's over. I kinda want it back...

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

MoMovie Scale

1-Very little story, very little graphic effects or poor cinematography
5- Decent Graphics and cinematography and decent story
10- Amazing graphics and amazing story

This scale is temporary and is very likely to change. I base his off of things like story, and appearance combined. I haven't seen Avatar, but from what I've heard It's graphics would receive a 10 while it's story would receive a 2. Then taking the average of the two scores I would get a 6.


I didn't see it in 3D. I think 3D kinda ruins a movie. It takes away from the story. Anyway, I saw it in regular 2D.

I read a couple of reviews before I went to the movie, and I have to say that they were way off. The reviewers said that it was like being on drugs. I disagree. Yea, the graphics are weird, but A) it is TIM BURTON, B) it's WONDERLAND. Both of those right there tell me that the graphics are going to be weird. But I don't think it was incredibly weird at all! I loved it! It all looked so great! Very well imagined and brought to life!

I really loved Johnny Depp in this. Then again, I love him in everything. He's such a good actor. In this movie, like his other ones, he has really great emotion and very intense expressions. He played his part well. (The funny thing is, every character he does has parts of his other characters. In this one you could see a bit of Jack Sparrow, and even some Willy Wonka, but overall, his characters are unique and very lovable--yes, even the murderous ones are lovable.)

Many people said the main actress was very expressionless. All I have to say is HAVE YOU SEEN KRISTIN STEWART? I'm serious about that. I mean this girl had really good expressions. Her character didn't have quite the array of emotions that the Mad Hatter had, so yes, she seemed a bit expressionless. She expressed the emotions well though. She really did.

I've heard a couple of people say that they didn't like the Red Queen's head because it was too large. Well it was SUPPOSED to be large. That was pretty much the core of the character. Without the abnormally large head, the character would have no basis for her actions. I think the director and crew made her head extra large so it would have more contrast, better for the screen.

There are two things I didn't like about the movie. The first was Anne Hathaway. I did not like her in the movie. it ruined it for me. Here we are in he middle of "Underland," where nothing makes sense, then BAM! a familiar face. Anne is a great actress, there's no doubt about that. But for me, the movie would have been a lot better if a lesser familiar face had been used for the White Queen. I'm not saying using Anne was a bad move, but I think maybe more FX and make-up would have helped.

The second thing I didn't like was the end discussion between the White Queen and the Red Queen. Maybe I'm just daft, but I didn't understand why the Red Queen couldn't be the Queen. She did say she was the eldest. Was it because her head was large? I just didn't understand it.

Overall, I give the movie and 5 on the MoMovies Scale.

Chapter 6

It was a cold, dreary night. The wind was howling outside my window. Deer dashed for the safety of the trees as the rain stabbed at the ground like icy daggers. The man known only as "sparky-sparky-boom-man" peered into the window from behind a tree. He watched the fire as it crackled in the hearth, waiting for the perfect moment to strike. Time crept by, and the storm raged on, but "Sparky-sparky-boom-man" did not move. Still as the north star, he sat. Inside, the fire slowly died, cuing him. "Sparky-sparky-boom-man" crouched low, ready to act. Lightning struck the tree just north of him, sending "sparky-sparky-boom-man" into a fury of movement.

Then, my blog was born.

Monday, March 15, 2010


Ya know what really gets me? High School students! I know I am one, but that doesn't mean they still can't drive me nuts.

There are a few kids out there who are my age who don't bother me, but for the most part, HS kids suck.

First, there are the ones who think their parents don't know anything, so they do things their way. Their way doesn't work out, so they try harder to not do what their parents say. I mean seriously. Parents can get annoying, but HELLO! they're older than you, by a lot. They've been here and there, they know what its like to deal with things. I mean they didn't live in the Garden of Eden, they know the world can really suck, they know that friends can be back stabbers, they know how hard it is to listen to parents!

Second, there are the ones that rebel to be different...the only problem with that is they all rebel the same way! Instead of standing out, they blend in. Their parents set rules like "don't dye your hair blue" so what do they do? they dye it blue! "don't get your body pierced" so what do they do? They pierce EVERYTHING!! It goes on and on like that! Yes, they wan't to be different, but that doesn't mean you have to be different in that way only! Try being extra bubbly, or work on your grades, or hey, here's a wild idea, BE YOURSELF!

Third, Kids whose parents control their every move. For example "Emma" (name has been changed just to be nice) used to be one of my bestest buds. Then her mom took over. Now emma only talks to me when her mom is not around, but as soon as her mom steps from behind her evil cloud of evilness, emma stops talking to me. she even blantantly ignores me. Emma also works to please her mom, because she is too scared to actually work for her own dream, so she works for her moms dream.

Fourth, people who are actually too arogant to realize how ignorant they are. Yes, this is refering to a lot of the kids in a certain program im involved in. They sit there, and listen, but only to a certain extent. As soon as the teacher says something they don't like, they shut their ears and open their mouths. "What?! Sex does not influence our advertising!" or "Our teacher is so perverted. No other teachers seek out ads that show semi naked women, or women shaped like perfume bottles! what is wrong with him!?" GROW UP! THE ADS EVERYWHERE ARE VERY SEXUAL AND VERY SEXIST! GET OVER IT! IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT THEN DON'T BOTHER READING ANY ADS, WATCHING TV, OR EVEN GOING TO A MOVIE!

oh! that's another thing! these same kids watch movies that have strong sexual content (for mormonville)--transformers 2-- and they don't see anything wrong with it. but when the topic of sex ed in schools comes up, they get all whiney about how awkward and horrible it is. they whine about how teachers shouldnt talk about sex at all, not even if it's part of the reproduction lesson in an anatomy class. RIDICULOUS!

I love all my friends, I really do, but sometimes, ya gotta grow up. I have a lot of growing and learning to do, but at least I'm over the "girls have cooties" stage, and I'm following my own path, my way with the help of older, smarter people.